Similar story here, I gave up for a decade and sold all my gear ( that would sell anyway) and then suddenly found myself in a band again and the whole thing started again. The Gas is stronger second time around though.
@Count Bassy I'm reading a bit of frustration between the lines of your OP, as I think you know the answers to the questions in it already.
Not very profound, but if you enjoy playing, then play, whether that be at a 10,000 seater stadium or in your bedroom. I imagine your collection of gear is all bought and paid for, so if you dont desperately need the capital tied up in them or the space they take up, leave them be.
I hope things work out for you and the future becomes a bit rosier. Though, me being an optimist, I already know it will be