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I know many of you wont understand the reasons fully, but thanks for the encouraging words.
After spending quite some time praying that I'm doing the right thing, I've found it's because music has always been an idol to me. One of the first things I do in the morning & last things I do at night is read about music & come on here (still doing it too!). Every spare minute if I'm not on here, I'm playing my bass or playing about with something related to music.
It needs to be broken so that I have no idols. Once this has been done, then maybe music can be part of my life & not be idolised by me.
Doing this has a strange feeling with it, very similar to when I quit smoking. I feel like I'm breaking free, but there's a part that is sad that the good parts shall be missed.
It's not about the playing of an instrument, but my relationship with instruments.
If I'm to be a musician, I'm sure it will be. I can always buy another bass/pedalboard/rig, I might come back to keys or to an instrument I've never played before like cello or sax.
If it's my calling to praise God in worship songs, then most churches have their own instruments.
Maybe God is just like the rest of you & hates it when I play a bit of slap bass & he's had enough.
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How is it idolatry to want to learn and improve your knowledge of a subject?
If you genuinely believe that music is a gift from God then in learning more about it and becoming better at it are you not respecting the gift given to you? Surely rejecting the gift is more of a problem?
Your own posts show that you do not put music above God in any way.
Your devoutness is not in question here - but your thought process is.
So I'm going to be slightly cynical I'm afraid - I think you want to quit and you are looking for justification and justifications don't come any bigger than divine instruction.