Sadly Chris until I understand the condition, what limits it puts on me, that decision is out of my hands. Even folk who've had it for years and have worked out how to live a virtually normal life can wake up one morning and just like that, realise they're going nowhere that day.
Band leader can't organise around me if she never knows I'm going to be there or not.
But for now she is talking deps and waiting for me to 'get better ' - if only it were that simple.
Time will tell, meanwhile they're cracking on without me.